Babble, 2025-08-26 08:35 – Burdock, anxiety, and agency

Tue, 26 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

After several days of pretty bad anxiety, Burdock seems to be wanting to take a little more agency over his feelings today. He’s been in some weird headspace toward me recently, that’s hard to describe: both jealous of my relationships with Es and Terran, but also jealous of their relationships with me. Unfortunately, this mostly manifested first in him whinging consistently, bumping into my knees, and trying to lay down in my spot in the bed - something that really reduces my comfort and quality of sleep, which can cascade due to my disability.

Babble, 2025-07-27, 08:57h

Sun, 27 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

In a few days, Michael will be arriving, which means today feels like the right day to start tidying up the house: procrastinated enough that there’s a sense of pressure, and enough that things won’t have time to get messed up before his arrival!

I think Terran mentioned last night that today is when he leaves for his train ride here - something he’s never done, and I’m excited for him! I’ve never done a legit long train ride in the US, despite some riding on cars around Appalachia, and my experience about train riding in Europe is out-dated, so I’m curious to hear what it’s like! I’m assuming it’s Amtrak he’s using, but I don’t know!

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Babble, 2025-08-26 08:35 – Burdock, anxiety, and agency

Babble, 2025-07-27, 08:57h